Episode 7: Sun-Speckled Belly and Backyard Dances
Sometimes the immensity of this undertaking,
having a baby during a pandemic,
being without income, reinventing an already new business that was just findings its legs,
navigating all of the uncertainty and risk and potential for disaster,
overwhelms me and fills me with doubt and fear.
And I go to my room and I cry and fall asleep for a bit
and my partner and children give me space to process
and heal
and gather my strength to rise and face it all
and I find some clarity
and I remember I am strong
and I know together we will get through it
and welcome this new life into whatever reality we’re in when it arrives
with love and grace and open arms
and I feel ok.
So I get up and walk out of my room and outside into the sunshine
to hugs and greetings of “mommy’s awake!”
and go about another day.
23 Weeks